Pre Thoughts

Well its past midnight so I guess it Saturday. Which officially means I leave tomorrow. Which officially means I'll be in New York City tomorrow. I wanted to write a post on all of my thoughts before I left. You seem I'm a big *feeler*...and I knew I would be overwhelmed with all of the emotions that come with leaving the city/state/people you know so well to venture to the Big Apple for 2.5 months.

Well I was wrong. I feel nothing.

It still hasnt hit me yet... suprising enough.

Granted, I've been way distracted...moving into a new apartment in Springfield was a 48-hour panic attack, packing for this summer was stressful and time consuming, saying goodbyes to old friends that wouldnt be in Springfield when I get back, etc. It just never really hit me.

But now I'm moved in.
I said my goodbyes.
I packed for NYC.
I dont know what sort of thing I'm waiting for to make me realize that this is for real but I know it hasn't happened yet. Maybe when I land? Maybe when I see the skyline from my airplane window?

Either way, I know I'm excited. This summer is going to change everything I know. Every dream, every goal and ambition...It's going to be a challenge I can in no way plan for and I can't wait for it to begin. I know I'm nervous....but then again, for what? I don't see myself failing. I'm a worker...I enjoy working. I have pretty good street smarts, I know not to be alone in the dark and not to get into unmarked cabs. I know a lot of people in the city (relatively). I have family there (shout out to laura..HOLLAA). I have friends visiting. Family visiting. But I guess thats a natural reaction.

Maybe the way I feel is just this: READY. I am prepared and ready for this. I have always wanted to live in NYC. I was just there too so what I've learned about the city is still fresh. I feel comfortable that I am leaving with no unfinished business and that the timing works with me. I have work to do, fun to be had and many many pictures to take.

So here we are. 24 (and a little more) hours until I leave and all I feel is that I. am. READY.